Tuesday, April 23, 2013

A bro.&blogger needs your votes....Endorsed by T.Notes! :)

Because i like a good challenge, and as a geek, i believe in the power of numbers, would you indulge me and push this budding blogger bro. up the polls like magic. You can vote via the link below, before (friday polls close).

7:44 AM (55 minutes ago)

to me
Hey T.N

Need a bit of favour :)

Can you drum up some votes for me (Yemi Odunfa) via your blogger friends.

It's a long shot, (as i've already got 10marks deductions for late submission) but for what it's worth....

Here's a quick link, which literally takes 3 seconds to vote for a worthwhile short story.

Vote Yemi Odunfa@
http://thenakedconvos.com/thewriter/?page_id=761

Thanks...Voting ends friday.

Here's my short story Entry:



Immigrant

One day, the black woman’s children will tell a story and the world will listen.

She calls out to them from their distant sojourns, to return home and meet her at the birthplace of their dreams, under an ancient iroko tree. Her message traverses quickly, like the distant rumble of the Sakara drum across an interlocking lattice of villages and metropolis, bearing significance to those who once cradled in the old woman’s arms. The sight is astounding as they come running with the swiftness of the gazelle. Even the moon peeps from behind the night clouds as the travelling multitudes troop in and settle down on bare clay grounds, tucking their knees under their chests like yesterday’s children.

She has waited for this day since she bid the last one goodbye, to chase after dreams she had whispered into their infant hearts.
Go! Ride the oceans, and bring back new stories for me in your pockets.
That is why on this night, she is not the one narrating the moonlight tales. Instead, she motions to Ifedayo and inquires with a twinkle,
"Tell us about the Queen’s land.”


Ifedayo is briefly quiet, reluctant to spoil the magic of the night, but she is encouraged by the older woman’s smile and finally speaks up.

“It isn’t anything like your stories Mama. There are no magnificent kingdoms or imperial palaces, only small confined spaces, allocated to each person in proportion to his tax band. Everywhere smells of cigarettes and my blood curls every time someone damages my name in pronunciation.”

There is a brief hush as her blatant confession teases the façade of the group. Keshi, the village drunkard staggers in, heaving two calabashes of freshly brewed palm wine and as always he misses a step and trips, spilling some of the fizzy beverage. A merry laughter breaks the awkward silence as a cheer erupts from the group in unison, “Keshi Ologogoro!”

“How difficult is it to pronounce Ifedayo?! It’s not fair, I pronounce their names right in a language that is not even my own mother tongue!”

Kadijat accepts a gourd from the frolicking Keshi and chips in her experience to the budding tapestry.
Wind in the willows, Treasure Island, James and the giant peach…I went with grand expectations of wonder, to dance with white pixies in magic faraway trees. The immigration officer welcomed me with disdain and a stern warning that if I dared abscond, the police will hunt me down like a rabid animal. Why would I ever want to abscond?! My passport back home is my dearest possession when I am far from home. It is only here that I can enjoy a non judgemental wine with Keshi.

I dare say you sent me off on a wild goose chase Mama. There were certainly no magic forests or cheeky fairies, only stern faced folks who either ignored my cheerful greetings or at best reply with a disinterested grunt. I have lived in my flat for five years and still ponder at the mystery of what my neighbour looks like”

Keshi drops his calabashes to take Kadijat’s hands in a giddy twirl, coercing a laugh out of the young woman whilst spilling her own wine all over the lot. “Oh Kadijat, has your memory grown so dim that you blame Mama for your flight? Mama sent you off with a cheerful dream in your heart, but was it not the horrors that crept into our land that sent your little feet scurrying?”

The drunkard’s careless words induce an abrupt change in Kadijat’s countenance. She suddenly appears genuinely petrified and hurries to crouch next to the older woman, who accepts her in an embrace. Rocking in place, Mama starts to hum a familiar tune, which the others quickly pick up in a rowdy chorus, “Rain rain, go away, come again another day, little Kadijat want to play!”

Chidi pitches in. “I never knew I was black until I left home, never had reason to feel uncomfortable in my own skin. I took no thought for stereotypes or ethnic prejudice until my first high school year in Sydney where I realized that the other children would not play with me.

I had a childish crush, a beautiful Aussie girl with long pigtails and the voice of an angel – just like in the movies. One day I finally summoned the courage to speak with her. That little devil turned up her nose and told me that I smell like the jungle and need to go back to my country.”

“Ishoooo!!!!” A mocked banter resounds from the group with laughter.

Chidi’s fiancée, Fisayo, leans in close to him and quells the jest with loving affirmation. “I love my baby’s dark chocolate skin just the way it is. His colour is a survivor of a pulsating history of slavery and racial segregation. So he is strong and unyielding, like a phoenix that rises from the ashes, defining himself for himself, not by how the world chooses to identify him. He is connected with nature, his family and a unique brotherhood that looks out for the well being of each other, like a fierce pack of tribal wolves.”

Ile Oba to jo, kerosine ati ishana lo fa!” Keshi quips in. “You are the cause of your own unrest. Foolish black boys immigrate to another man’s land and gang up in hooded groups with switch blades in their socks. It is only inevitable that the police and politicians will not give you rest.”

A murmur of disagreement rises, and the older woman leans back with a smile. The land had been silent for too long. The new generation is not like these ones. They are too impatient to learn the games of old times, or listen to an old woman’s opinions on life.

“Come now dear ones. An old adage reminds us that, we are not here to curse the darkness, but to light a candle that can guide us through that darkness to a safe future. For the world is changing. The old era is ending; old ways will not do. So, let us return to where we first begun and I will ask my question again. Ifedayo, tell me about the fine wonders in the Queen’s land.”

This time, the younger woman’s face lights up and she narrates with a giddy chuckle.
“Everybody becomes a child again on the first night of winter. Two things amaze me when the snowflakes begin to colour the land for the first time. First I marvel at the wonder of nature then I look across the street and realize that everybody is doing just the same. Imagine if it snowed in Nigeria, Mama!”

Hauwa jumps in. “I relish when you call me on the phone and I speak to you in our local language. I feel different in a beautiful sort of way that I cannot feel when I am home. It’s a warm feeling to know that I have Katsina to return to when my wandering legs tire. But ooh Mama, I also love the PastaPaPa Italian restaurant off avenue des Champs-Elysées."

Mama throws back her head in laughter, and motions to Folakemi.
“Come on Folakemi, your turn. Tell us about the northern lights!”

Their stories carry on into the night…

END
For the ones who have wandered far from home…and the dreamers amongst us.
By Yemi O.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

From Tenerife...with Love...



Feet up...
Novels propped...
Well, it is not entirely summer, but you get the picture.
Vacation is Bliss.

I am pondering the future of these pages...
Certainly no longer my neat little private spot.
As i find myself having to often give consideration to audience.

It's the age old curse of exposure demands responsibility
When we become restrained to dance naked in the rain like yesterdays...
And seriously,linked-in and FB requests...clearly my annonymity is slowly becoming a breached b3st3rd.

I have tried to don a subtle new mask and slip into a new page...
But familiarity is where the heart lies...

So today i have walked the perimeter of this walls
and admitt i'd want to stay a while...
I'll be responsible elsewhere another day...

So, to all the hackers, let's cut a bargain...
Today, let my thoughts and soul roam free
None chasing any wishful stardom...only freedom.

And point me in the direction of the gates-to-identity i have ignorantly left swinging open

And when finally the curtains call,
we'll all end the show with a real honest toothy grin!

Deal?

T.Notes.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Dear Atilola, Nigerian in Nigeria...

Dear Atilola...

I have followed your progress as a writer and a spoken word artiste for a little while, and for which i commend your tenacious spirit and the applaudable progress you have made in pursuing your dreams. Against this premise, you should understand that this response should not be mis-construed as a call-to-arms, but rather an opinionated response to your post.

I understand from the tone of your words, that the underlying emotions that prompted this piece are real, and i respect that. However, you err on the side of speaking from a biased understanding of the NID. You pointed out the danger of a single story, so i will elucidiate the points you are missing and thereby inadvertently inciting undue animousity. Because in as much as you have not drawn any distinctions between a Nigerian residing in Nigeria, then you cannot correctly draw distinctions-saying one NID is more noble than another. Any Nigerian who has afterall applied for a citizenship of any country has equally given up some extent of hope for fatherland. And whether noble or not - be it Myne Whitman, or Chimamanda Ngozi adichie, you might as well put them all in the same boat and call all foreign kettles charcoal-black.

What would drive a person so desperate to vacate where his roots lie in search of an experience that he does not even know exist? Understandably, the motives of the myraids of nigerians putting in immigration applications are diverse, but beneath everything is the stark dissapointment in our system, and a search for tangible, plausible hope. The kind of hope that when deferred for decades makes the heart sick. Hope for security when i shut my eyes to sleep, hope for light to read a novel in quietness, hope for safety in simple journeys across homeland roads, hope for medical facilities to treat the wounds that spill over from the heart into the bloodstreams. When hope is not justified, the words that return from the lips have the tendency to incite hurt. Hurtful words such as ' I have given up hope for Nigeria'. But if a hurting child speaks foolishness, do you slap him right there, or seek to address the cause of his pain? NIN, or NID, our hurts and pains are the same. It is that root dissapointment which should be attended to.

You correctly pointed out that despite our professed nonchalance and dearth to fatherland, we cannot stop talking and lamenting. I say, leave us to our laments, however we choose to make them - they are borne out of our own experiences. I may be able to speak in the tongues of colored men and of angels; I may possess foreign signates that brand me as a citizen of another country, but everyday and in everywhere, I am still an outsider, a foreigner - that is our experience as NID. Have they told you that side of the story, or the hurt of racist experiences. A black man that is ostracised by black Americans. A decorated academic that is belittled to a ten second TV advert charity case. Comic relief charity raises funds for starving children in Africa - an identity to be proud of? Did they forget to mention that our Nigerian nature to fight carried on into our present abode, where we now fight to give credence to our opinions, and undo the stigma wrought to our names by my NIN brothers at home who have made internet fraud an occupation?

You ask for a solution instead of complaints. But i can only think of the friend who was shot in Lagos traffic recently, and the assailant walks away in broad daylight, and of another who was briefly at home and got caught up in a savage mobb's retribution, and the cousin who lost his mother to a malaria mis-diagnosis. You write about silencing this bitterness as another uncommon and unfortunate occurrence, but unfortunate and counting still are the bloods that are still crying out for justice whilst politicians are spewing lies and MOG are acquiring private jets. No country is without her problems, yes. And our plights are not unique to Nigeria - agreed. But even the countries with current problems have some form of steady development to boast of. As a Nigerian, I have little.

Songs of hope aside, Nigeria is indeed a profound puzzle. And admittedly, it is not in anybody's place to steal the way of hope that each Nigerian navigates to get through each day living with this identity of being African, being Nigerian...It is also not in anyone's place to seek to silence the frustrations of the one who cries his own tears from a distant land.

When NEPA cuts power in the peak of a game, the NIN curses the government in frustration. Similarly if i return home having used up my days waging unnecssary battles for the sake of my colored skin and accentuated communications, and wish to retire my evening into day- dreams of motherland, only to turn on the t.v to another senseless boko haram bombing, then leave me be to curse whomever i wish to curse. Just like Akeem, the cleaner (or sanitation executive as he has now been donned) in my office whom i often spend friday evenings chatting with. And oh how he laments - of the poverty in his family at home. But how by cleaning office furniture in a foreign land, shelving his pride, he can pay for his children's fees and seek to relocate them to a country where they can dream and own a hope. And yes, Akeem curses the government and the politicians. And everytime he rinses his anticeptic wipes tools of trade, he further washes his hands off the dream of home. Will you curse Akeem too? Instead i listen to him, encourage him, and wish him well. That is the kind of comradeship that i know among NIDs. We stick together, spur each other on and seek to rebuild the ruins of our childhood dreams albeit in another man's land. Let sleeping dogs lie. I may have dreams for a better Nigeria, and Mr Okunde who lives next door is savagely embittered about home. But we enjoy a sunday roast together and speak our native tongues together. Don't draw devisive lines for us.

The winter is hardly over, so I have to pay for heating, water, electricity, council tax, expensive monthly rents and buy a thicker winter coat. In the nights, I hug a cup of tea, look out the window and pray for my family at home. Hope is hard for the NIN. But i assure you that the NID knows the same bitterness. A bastard child who roams closer to home, and the other prodigal one who finds feet in distant land, is however still a bastard - both of whom are simply in search of a real place to call home. Hence, a more useful conversation would be for how to rebuild a lost heritage, instead of looking over imaginery fences and calling out names. Because whilst we used up useful time on this argument, another local government councillor has walked home with a bag full of un-earned money that should have been used to pay Akeem's kid's school fees.

As for the opinion that every NID is a pitiable white man's slave....hardly worth debating.

Yours sincerely

T.N

Nigerian.



Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Rumpelstiltskin



She asked me to call her Rumpelstiltskin
tug hard and ravage your ascent into my tower
Never mind the ones peering out the windows
Ignore my screams and carnal purrs
Oh yes, and don't stop baby till you reach the top

Deranged fairytales - who sold you a lie?
I see a million faces when i am with you
eyes wide shut to prolong this ectasy
The stupid junkie lights a joint
let the fool's beauty paegent begin

Thrust, puff, angle, Mary Mary love of my days
Gospel of Saints and prostitutes
who let you in untold secret
passion and desire, go on, chase after the wind
Epilogue, submit the scepter and make me a eunuch

Broad chested, greek goddess
tanned arms, sturdy roman pillars
arrogance from Arachne phallus
Maiden's delight, fool's demise
Yes i know, and even where understanding should suffice
what do You give in exchange for an alabaster box?

She asked me to call her Rumpelstiltskin
my father told the king i can spin gold from straw

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Dear annonymous commenter...
as in, like seriously...





Friday, December 28, 2012

Ho Ho Ho

....Merry Christmas folks....
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Friday, October 19, 2012

Randoms....Dear Manager in f%^ words and pictures

My manager told me today to 'make more use of colors and pictures in my presentations'. I told him i'm a fucking statistical analyst not a pre-school artist! He grumbled that i never accept anybody else's constructive opinion...so WTF, here goes...my toast to words & pictures dear f^%king manager!

This is me:
I'm a guy with a f%^king big head who constantly feels the need to have a pretty girl for handbag & confidence props.

I have f%^king big dreams...and every step in my life has been in pursuit of making these dreams come true...and very many life altering decisions i have made.

Yet i find it a fc7king irony, because for all of the decisions,i feel all i have done is repeatedly altered my geographical location yet remaining in the same rut. Three years ago, i couldnt stand my Nigerian manager. Today, the white girl i work with gets on my nerves, and i often stare at my boss and imagine what his face looks like when he's cumming.

Three years ago, I had coffe break looking out to third mainland bridge traffic thinking WTF i'm doing in this place. Today, I have coffee looking out over Canary wharf still thinking WTF i'm doing with my life...it all makes zero sense. So i have concluded that work is just work. Lets just keep singing FML every morning, pay the bills, and get back to the drawing board to find the master-plan...or Master's plan...


Did i forget to mention that I am a Christian. No. I have just been honest in understanding the ridiculous order of priorities in my existence at the moment. I say a few seconds of prayer when i kick out of bed in the morning, do my devotions whilst taking a dump in the toilet, and muse to God whilst commuting to work about how i hate my life. I wonder how xtain i am....but i think my heart is very earnest about the predominantely worship music on my ipod.

And this here is the major reason why i am such a suckey xtian. Its because of my addiction to squeaky clean bubble butts.


I am very introspective, hence very easily prone to stupid bouts of depression. But instead of getting all suicidal and sad, i just get sarcastic. And all these oyinbo people will be thinking shit is funny...until they see suicide note,then they will be saying, 'f^&k mehn,you mean he was for real?' But nahhh....

I know pain like i know the lengths of the stretch marks at the back of my hand. I have screamed as the car collided into ours and the windscreens shattered...I have raced through traffic to the hospitals...I have made frantic calls home and felt helpless as my world crumbled a thousand miles seperating me from the reality of things...I have curled up as the pains returned. I have been under the doctor's instruments...I have fought for loved ones...I know pain like i know the lengths of the stretch marks. On account of these,i think he makes more grace abound. But i keep fearing that i have not seen the worse of things,so instead of living being thankful for the sun and the birds, i am sceptic that one day God will let the worst happen...This is not a pretty inspiring devotional page...this is life...like many of us have come to know...Pain happens, and Life must be beautiful still.


So dear manager, i'm sure by now you will agree, that it is a safer bet to just let me stick to the number charts and pretty graphs that i am trained to do. All this talk about pictures and colors, just brings out the worst in me.

To end things on a cheerier note. Dear God, could you give me a really pretty, super adorable daughter. I promise to love and pamper her silly. And we'll both have a super sense of humour and watch intelligent youtube comedies and DefPoetry shows like Wyclef's immigrant...none of all these TONTO DIKE Sumthings!



Randoms...clearing mind clutter....

All of life is a random blog..

1. Life is hard...and sometimes it all just makes zero sense.

2. Whenever i sign into blogger, i end up wandering blogsville till 2a.m...

3. These days I'm fed up with Nigeria, my home...it ends up a loathesome situation because for the most parts, I can't stand London, and America gets on my nerves...So many of us just end of as foreigners living in the middle of some limbo with no real place to call home.

4. God....

5. S is a f$%king awesome person...

6. I want to give Lara a big hug.

7. Kiah is the cutest blogger on blogsville.

8. I'm sick of sex...it is a complex situation how the thought of it just repulses me.



9. God....

10.I'm travelling in a few days...looking forward to that.

11. I hate change.

12. I confess that i couldn't quite stand Myne Whitman some years ago. I couldnt understand what the big deal was about a Nigerian love story book. I confess that I still have not read her book...but over the years, i've frequented her blog and grown a healthy respect for her. The current issues asides...I think she's really awesome.

13. I swear to God, all these tabloid blogs sha.

14. I bought a large size condom and we had a massive laugh about how i almost ripped the thing apart.

15. Laughter is...fickle.

16. This is the reason why i think S is awesome...because she long admitted that she needs a shrink for her depressions.

17. People are hard to rely on. So it makes me wonder why we give such a damn about what people think. Nobody really gives a rats backside about anybody, so why not live-out-loud?

18. Today, i stood at a cross road between a strip club, and kfc...then i pushed open the slide doors and ordered a snack box with one piece of chicken, loads of ketchup and ice cold pepsi.

19. I have doubts about God's promises...i wonder what that makes me, and what He thinks about that. I'm not having fickle doubts..instead i'm questioning the rationale of some of the instructions in the Bible...like wondering out loud, 'uhmmm, i'm not sure this makes sense you know.'....i think that's another level of heresy, but i can't stop the thoughts.

20.Like seriously, FML! I have all this..stuff, and it still doesnt even make sense.

21. Most oyinbo folks are full of sh&t, and i know i have my own garage truck full of racist tendencies....

22. What is it with all these comments moderation word verification nonsense all over people's blogs? That shit is whacked now!!!Do you know how much effort it takes to squint and try to get those words right. STOP PUNISHING YOUR READERS. It is not fair!!!

23. How often do you wish someone would 'get you' right to the very depth of your soul? But its funny that when you find that possibility in a person, you start to consciously reserve the 'right of access' to 'all of you'. Feeling violated at the thought of a stranger trespassing every secret corner of your being without permisssion. So you withdraw, and only offer bits and pieces of you...then start to wish again for someone to entirely completely 'get you'...to the very core of your soul. Its a stupid vicious circle.


Yet, all of life is a random blog..